Wings of passion

Ch 7: Who Am I ?


                                  [Enigma phase always going to be there in back of my mind like as always,    like that open tab which keeps on playing & playing &playing that same freaking track of your sad songs playlist]


                                   I've been taking some time And I've been keeping it to myself.all the human beings on the earth wants to know that what purpose do i serve in this precious life?


                                   Yes,i know a little bit of mine,i am coder not that show off kinda one like Real One.My journey started the day i fell hard for mr.stark it was 2008.weird but true.but more than that i was in love with technology like damn man.i just wanna be something in this huge world where 'Anyone can be Anything'. I wanna become me.i think there must be A reason behind why I'm here, i wanna know that why?                          


"The Universe has a way of leading you to the place you are supposed to be when you are supposed to be there.”

                                                                            [*in my head*]

                    ' I will make it back to you'  i promised myself  when i was leaving that place called home.I'm here to say "hey" to future.so i started working on things i love.so i hit the road.



                                                    [Driving my car playing Maps by Maroon 5]
                          So I wonder, where were you?
                          All the roads you took came back to me
                          So I'm following the map that leads to you you-you-you-you-you
                         Ain't nothing I can do
                         The map that leads to you
                         Following, following, following to you you-you-you-you-you
                         Ain't nothing I can do
                         The map that leads to you
                         Following, following, following...

                      

                       But I miss him in every song,my heart wants to hold his hands,look him in the eyes and say..... I LOVE YOU 3000 Man,i hope he feels the same way, may be in his sleep....

                                                You never know where the road may take you.

                                                    

Enigma

Ch :6  Glimpse



             my bestfriend & I ...the bond was created very strong that can never be broken by anyone.
guess what he found the 'panda' for himself ,i mean girlfriend.ya panda,not that big one,the one who sleeps all the time and eats whatever it likes.


As always,new life also bring me some pain of ignorance,now we bacame 3 &guess what , i'm ghosted.frankly saying i don't like that part where our friends ghost us for someone that they met newly ! pain guys.real pain.but i'm happy for him because panda makes him smile.

                                          what else can i ask from universe,right?

                 Now,i'm all alone thinking about what if i date someone.my heart says "wtf ?
anddd...


                 All those memories burnt in my head,i don't want to go back,but now,now...

i'm craving for my robert downey jr.But he is far away from me,no number,no address,no social media,ntg.

I'm Hankering for his existence.I just want Glimpse of his smile.his eyes...

Whatever we have,whatever we do,we are all empty without our love.i totally believe if you have family who loves you,friend that can be your sword in any battles,lover who always makes sure if you are ok or not.you are richest person in the world....

Right in the movement,I'm blank ...

enigma of life.

  

Reborn

             

                                    What Would This Chapter Of Your Life Be Called ?

  Ch:5  FLY SOLO

               "You have escaped the cage.your wings are stretched out.Now fly." told myself.

               Happy.  Sad.  Excited.  Homesick.  Independent.  Lonely. Kinda vibes in the air.

 I landad safe & soundly.



 Day 1:you can't wake up this is not a dream.

But I'm dreaming with my eyes wide open. New country to breathin,New journey to finish,New life to live.New road to my destination.everything changes.this is my time to make change for worst or better.i'm never gonna stop for anyone.this is it.this is all i want.

I smiled and stared at the mirror because that's what i do in the morning.globally top-ranked University is waiting for me.Nothing makes a worse impression than strolling in late. Especially for the first class, you should make an extreme effort to be punctual.so i left for the journey.


                                                                 [*]

" hey buddy,you look cool !" the stranger whisperd,
"what kind of book is this?" he added,
"Always" i said,
that clicked in his head it's harry potter series book.
       


            I made a friend who looked like real gangsta who can fight with anyone.i wasn't looking for any normal person i can study with,we literally connected with each other,we talk,we eat,we read..


and guess what Life is Beautiful.

Hard and Heavy Goodbye

Chapter 4 : Good Bye

            I left My Mom and dad & My family.I was about to cry but i'm not that kind of person who can cry infront of any one. Strong soul,Never cries. But more than that i can not cry in front of My Dad.


"Is chasing your dreams worth it?"
Distance ... My parents and My Dreams?

            Dream where you are being chased is who is chasing you.No No Not that dream.


                                                        GET READY TO SOAR ! 
                          
                                                                      [*]

    In the world of people who loves dogs,cats etc.i want that "Phoenix" from Harry potter.

 "Fascinating creatures, phoenixes. They can carry immensely heavy loads, their tears have healing powers, and they make highly faithful pets." like our Albus Dumbledore said and i wish i can heal my pain with phoenix tears.

Maybe i wanna become like Phoenix.Phoenix's abilities is to regenerate itself. It periodically bursts into flames when its body becomes old, and rises from the ashes as a newborn chick.


Guess What I left For aeroplane.


                                              Remember ? Now Or Never ?
                                                 It's   " NEVER"
            
                                 
                          The End of the story Or Just the beginning ?

And against all odds,against all the logic,But Deep inside we still hope...Hope someday i'll meet you and never let you go.

 Something is missing...Yeah Music..I put my skullcandy on my head playing....

                    [If I'm lucky, I'll meet ya, heaven or high water
                     'Cause things didn't work out in this life, but maybe
                     Vodka on my lips
                     Took too many drinks
                    Makes me Reminisce all the way down
                    Song by jason derulo. ]

Chapter:3     Verdict

               wind be like "Wait there for a long time "(figuratively forever)
       
               Remember ? Now Or Never Situation !

                                           (In my mind: what if he comes back and i'm not there
                                                                             Or
                                                       what if....you know what i mean ? )

Well, what a surprise... There's no human being look like the person I love...

         Guess I waited....for That Last Beautiful moment,It felt like it's killing me...But what more we can do when universe want it that way, man!

                                                                  [*]

                     I opened two gifts this morning. They were my eyes.

       
   " La mañana,Buenos días "   (Spanish Addict Me) I said,
                               


                            Today,I'm in mood of standing in front of the mirror telling myself  "Everything about to change like food haha.Stretching For that Long journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step.... About to Take a walk To be close enough for the next destination.

      " Breakfast " Mom yelled,


After breakfast it was about to be so emotional like I'm ripping off my heart from my body.

        "Goodbye" Sucks!
     

Remember About my Dream?

  " Today " Is the day ☀


(well i left for airport...)


       
     




                        

                             

Introduction and Mystery

 Chapter 2: Professional or more of A Private Human being?


                               Hello,I'm White Collar Techie.Yes,I'm Software Engineer But not more than a Dreamer. Don't you think introductions are boring? But Without being introduced how can you know Any Human Being on the earth?

   Are you looking for my Name or What ??? Keep on reading...HaHa,.Don't Be so Crikey !

(Obviously,you already got an image of me coding or hacking something,right?
hacking facebook,hacking instagram or bank accounts,haha
That's What people usually thinks About Me,Nevermind)

       Totally,i'm a coder n more than anything i'm writer.I'm kind hearted, sincere, enthusiastic, energetic Girl who is moody for Fucking Happiness and Peace.Yes,"One of A Kind" Human But Not so old fashioned person.


                                            "A Open Book Which Cannot Be Read"
                                                          
                                                                      


                                                                            [*]
                          (Playing Music in background : I Like me better when i'm with you)


    "Holla" I said,

    "Can I have some cup of tea with..." I added

   "Of course,Why Not? " He Replied with his sparkly eyes without even letting me complete my sentence ,

                                                           [Peaceful vibes in the air]

   "You look like what Robert Downey jr. sounds like"  I Cracked Humor To Impress One & Only Man of  My Life Who is not even mine,Fuck.

He smiled.

              ( He was about to say something about his job & his I-phone started buzzing...) 

Oops...He left without saying a word to me...

 I cried My heart Out & it started to rain...

                                  

                                           (Stay tuned Guys it's about to change wholeheartedly... )

                                                    

Reminisce

Reminisce...

    A Story of  Reminisce....


Chapter 1 :Memories Meets Reality

      Holla....woahhh!!! I said,

After Long time i just Saw him coincidentally,

    He was with his best friend,blue shirt,Classy hairstyle,Robert downey jr. behavior in his personality.He was the man i loved in the past may be i still do love him,nothing but he deserve to be treated like asgard God like Thor I Guess...with his strombraker,haha.

    " Excuse me !"    i heard from the background,
    "Omg"  my face can't stop blushing, It's him man.

But what more you can do when you perfectly plan your mask you wear!


                (In My Mind: Do you Know what has been Going on in his life since the last time you talked)


 We both smiled like a kid who has Sarcastic Sweet Smile .and ignored like we don't know each other.

AFTER SOME DAY,

(Our happy place in past time...)

 I accidentally reach out to the same " Tea " Place Where We both played Chess like every single day,
            
Unfortunatlly, after some time i'm going Abroad as i planned to live my DREAM,it was my last time that i can see him in person.

"Not Today satan" I said,

He was there,I was there...
           It's Now or Never ! 

("May your crush finally call you and there be no network" kind off vibes)

Odd right?

 My life always gives me goosebumps with heartattack ,funny right?

                                                                                                        To Be Continued...